The Silhouette of Quarry- Part (2)

[NOTE: To enjoy the post below, you better relive (re-read) the previous post with the same name :)]

Oh God! It was still after me [at least I felt it]! I experienced things that made me realize I ought to contact a counsellor. Days went by ... I had to lose things that my personality was made of- my smile, my confidence, my esteem, my self. Traumas and dilemmas took over. Stress was there too. I was a freshman and I had no idea that my academic results too were going to let me down [by the way, I should have known that ;)], but that's how it went. I was flabbergasted at my loss after so inferior a thing such as Silhouette. To describe my feelings at that time in a better way, I must suggest you give a listen to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EfRLmk7Q_q4
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A year later, becoming a sophomore was a pleasant experience ... I felt good :) I was returning to be a care-free person I used to be long ago. Oh, I was working really hard to get my grades up and make a good total at the end of the two years of Intermediate. I was sublimating my aggression in the form of creativity. I was the apple of the eye of my teachers [English and English Literature teachers especially, because in English you get to pour all the creativity out in a much classical sense :)] The stress of losing some so-called friends at the end of the first year was also going away, I had new and better ones :) And so the second year gave me good grades, highest marks, appreciation from teachers and everything back that usually the parents need more than the child ;) And the most significant thing to mention here that's exactly in accordance with the title of this post is that I didn't even remember the Silhouette. It wasn't anywhere at least in my conscious or sub-conscious, no idea about unconscious! We might find it out later what made me forget (temporarily) the Silhouette.
So, the third year began, it was this 'sms' that brought the lousy, obscure, cryptic, esoteric and unfathomable past back! To be honest, my reply to the message was- "who cares?" ... may be I didn't know myself, I did.
Back then, I did not have this facility at home that is considered of pivotal importance in making world a global village so I might have had a 1% truth in my response. But I knew, I was going to repudiate. I was not unfaithful after all, at least to my own preferences...

So just then, I was introduced to the second most influential being in my life, the Quarry. Again, in this case, I had it in of front me from the start of that year but it felt like I had been blind-folded. It was introduced to me on the day of perusal and I honestly did not know I was going to get affected by it. Oh, I loved to have a comrade like Quarry. Each day, I waited to have a new and memorable talk with it but it was all fading away in the time being. I couldn't do anything to stop it. I did verbalize my fears and desires to it but all of that went in vain. Bad year that was. I loved, respected, tried, fought and wept again. Altogether, it was again a bad academic year. Quarry was very nice [apparently]. Still is very nice [apparently]. Its very nice to cherish the memories of being asked, being neglected and then finally, being refused. Shame on me, but I still manage to love my inner self ;) And can't manage to forget  the past. Still have regrets, bruises but its the way it is now, nothing can be done with the events that came and went away in the teens [the age of fire]. The after effects include- I often go blank in scrutiny, I experience disorganized speech, I forget things quickly and easily, have become a lot more lethargic as well ;)
But I am a very nice person now :) [sorry, I had to say that myself 'cause I can't afford to weaken the sense of self-efficacy now ;)]
Forgetting and decoding everything from the memory isn't easy. I did manage to get over the traumatic events, to love and leave the metaphysical beings (that's what to me they are now) but I had to compromise certain innate abilities- I had a very good memory and you might know it by now because I have so much mess within my mind that keeps irritating me and makes me write ironic posts like these but, going back to the phenomenon of completely forgetting the Silhouette and partially forgetting the memorable events with the Quarry; since I still have to face the latter everyday, I now realize that I must have taken help of a psychological phenomenon known as 'motivational forgetting (repression)'. And from where did I come to know of it? Well, there's at least something that we learn from the course that we study everyday at our educational institutes ;) And may be this procedure of M.F is responsible for the obstacles I face and have mentioned at the end of the above paragraph.
Waiting for the end? ~ No, I did not forget them both permanently, I do have this facility at home that is considered of pivotal importance in making the world a global village. I do care and I do follow the 'sms', nearly everyday. And I do feel repentant when I get to see the Quarry everyday (when its not a holiday). But I think now I have become perfectly:

Mind-Boggling perspective Photos.

The powerful two chickens!

George Silk photographs swimmer Kathy Flicker in a pool in 1962, and the refraction makes it seem as if her head is separate from her body. 

The obligatory "holding up the Leaning Tower of Pisa" photo.

Americans never change!

No Photoshop tricks, just a matter of choosing the right perspective (and an ultra-wide angle works well in this case, too).

Is it a bird? Is it a plane? This bald eagle may look like it is jet propelled - but it's actually been photographed as an airplane flies in the distance. In a once-in-a-lifetime shot, the engines' exhaust trails appear as if they are billowing out of the bird's talons as it soars in the air. The extraordinary moment was captured on camera by Pam Mullins close to her home in Prince Rupert, British Columbia, Canada.                      

A woman in London snaps a photo in Trafalgar Square -- but her position next to a fountain makes it seem as if water is shooting out of the lens.

Climbing a road! But it sure seems like a wall, doesn't it?

Courtesy: http://news.yahoo.com/photos/mind-boggling-perspective-photos-1319756809-slideshow/1-photo-1319755447.html

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The Silhouette of Quarry.

For many people, this title might be a little unusual, so before I go on explaining my story, I better clarify the title first. The silhouette is a featureless image of anything that consists of only the outlines. And the part where the features are supposed to appear is filled with a solid color, usually black.

                                                 This is how a silhouette may look.

And as for the word quarry, this word actually has miscellaneous meanings but the sense I am using it in is: an object of pursuit.

This has been a highly personal experience for so long but I decided to not keep it within anymore. Its been 7 years since I am trying to find the meanings of the terms soul-mate and soul-sister and any other bond that include the word 'soul' in it. A soul is obviously something invisible but the most queer thing about it is that we all somehow feel the presence of this sprite-like thing inside us. 

And so it happened to me in these seven years, I met two most influential persons in my life. One for real and the other -well, it was a character created by my own mind. I found them both influential because I was a teen, I was enthusiastic, I was ambitious, I was attracted toward the people who shared my interests or at least possessed those attributes that I myself lacked and wanted to have. Last but not the least, I also had a germ to get everything that I feel like getting. I thought it was possible and easy because I was determined. But what I didn't realize then was that I am a human (like everybody else is) and humans are impotent (powerless)!

So coming to those two persons (whose names it would be better not to publicize- we better call the first character 'silhouette'), with whom I felt a connection to the soul. The first one 'was' actually a silhouette or may be it had been more closer to me but I never paid enough attention to witness it in 'light'. Here, the 'light' refer to a light of divinity- that guides you what is right or wrong or what should be paid attention to (that can be of your interest in the future) and what should be ignored. 

And so as I said earlier, I never paid attention to it in right time but when I realized that this silhouette was attracted towards me and that I better respond to it, it was too late. So, keeping in mind to "never give up", I tried to get acquainted with Silhouette myself. This time, my test had begun. It took me only few months to realize that in life, we ought to better deal and respond to the people that like/love us instead of lamenting for those we lost or could never get but this Silhouette made me come to my knees in the next 3 years proving my theory wrong. I tried to remember what so bad did I do to that Silhouette that it was teasing me like this and  I recollected that I had been quite rude once in rolling my eyes on to it. I laughed out loud at this recollection! And so I didn't come to know when exactly did I start to fantasize the Silhouette... I was so in with it. I began to do things that you've only heard maniacs and cynics doing. Laughed while crying, cried while laughing, scratched nails onto skin, dialed only 'a' number while calling anybody without any intention to dial it etc but guess what, I was still being ignored by the Silhouette...

Keep in mind that whilst all this was happening, I was in my early teens. The Silhouette was stone-hearted.

High school was over. And I had a new life to look forward to... But this childish character hadn't left me yet.

(the rest of the spiel would be included in the second part and not to mention - the second influential being is still to come) :} 

To Be Continued.

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Enchanting!

Today, I honestly don't feel like saying anything about the photograph that I am going to share here with all of you.

This is a truly amazing and enchanting photo for which at least I lack vocabulary! But if you people know a better word or statement that can do justice to the beauty of it, you are most welcome :) For I am sure my readers are a class apart! :)

This photograph is by Jack Paulus and it has been shot in Cenotes, Chichen-Itza, Mexico. It had the privilege of being the photo of the day for the official National Geographic Website.

4 Secrets To Making Yourself Irresistible!

Underneath is an article I read a couple of weeks ago and I found it so closer to reality that I decided to share it with all my readers :) Being irresistible and interesting is what we all desire for so here are a few tips to enjoy life and yet become attractive to the people around you! With a few additions and subtractions, I have brought this article to you. Hope you enjoy the read ;)

Four Secrets to Making yourself irresistible:

1) Confidence, confidence, confidence!

One of the most attractive traits you can have is confidence. We are all naturally drawn to people who are self-assured and confident. Part of the reason for this is because we tend to admire people who have traits we would like to possess ourselves. And confidence is one of those traits so many people lack. Also, if one already possesses a positive trait, we are drawn to others who have it as well.
Confident people are appealing because they act from a position of strength. That is, they don’t give their power away easily, and thus are more in control when it comes to interpersonal situations. A truly confident person usually has high self-esteem. As a result she is typically less “needy” in a relationship, drawing others to her, rather than repelling them like needy people do.
Now you may be thinking to yourself, if I am lacking in confidence how do I get it? Well, there are many things you can do to build your self-confidence which are beyond the scope of this article, but the first thing you can do is to “act as if”. This can actually be quite powerful if you do it consistently.
Practice acting as if you are confident. Standing tall and looking people in the eye when you talk to them are two good places to start. Observe others who appear confident and model their behavior. Smile and say hi to people and initiate conversations. You may be quaking in your boots on the inside, but only you need to know that! Acting “as if” is a great way to begin developing any desirable trait, and the more you do it, the more it will develop.

2) Stop being so nice…


This is a far more crucial aspect of attractiveness than most people realize. First, let me clarify that there is nothing wrong with being a truly nice person, IF you are doing it for the right reasons and if you have a lot of other great qualities to go with it. Unfortunately, some people act nice because a) they need to compensate for a lack other positive qualities; b) they are incredibly insecure and desperate to please; or c) they want something from you. In these three cases, “nice” is not really a good trait and makes a person anything but attractive. Have you ever met someone who you thought was “really nice” at first, and then in time, when they didn’t get what they wanted from you they suddenly turned on you and showed a very dark side? Or, perhaps you've met people who are nice in that they are so desperate to win your approval that they always agree with you, always laugh at your jokes, and will do anything you ask them to. Now, how much respect do you have for people who are like that? Probably very little, if any.

Most people appreciate a woman who is secure enough to stand up for herself, says no, disagree, and express her opinion even when it is the opposite of theirs. Not only is it intriguing, it shows confidence and strength. This isn’t to say you should never agree with them or that you should shove your opinions in their face at every opportunity. Rather you want to show that you don’t need their approval; that you are your own person. And that makes you very attractive and interesting.

3) Never talk about your flaws!

Okay, I need to preface this with saying that when you know a person quite well, it’s okay to share some of your most secret self doubts and insecurities. BUT, early on, don’t whine about your flaws! You want them focusing on your strengths and not your faults, so by all means don’t go pointing them out to the people yourself. Because if you do, they would start wondering that if you don't like yourself, what do they like you for?!

4) Leave them with a desire to know you more...

This is vital, specially when you have succeeded in impressing someone, it is better not to give away your thoughts, aims, desires, secrets, strengths and weaknesses - all at once. leave them to explore you with the passage of time. Because if they would know all about you in no less than one or two meetings, they might get bored of you too quickly. So act wisely and live happily ;)

Courtesy: http://healthyandbeloved.com/?p=71

Similitude!

Rains are so very much like your memories to me. Have you ever thought why I relate them with you memories?
Because each rain drop is like a single past moment that comes from the high Welkin and dies when it touches the earth ... Like every past moment of ours started with the peak of contentedness and died with a tear that rolled directly from the heart and ended at the bottom of the cheek.
Tears - say raindrops. Oh! tears. Have you ever thought why do they come? Why do we feel like weeping whenever we are vague? They come when patience overs, when we are so filled with emotions that we can take it no more and so we flow our emotions out in the shape of tears.
Tears and raindrops, so many similes to them. let us discover a few more ...
Pearls. Gosh pearls, amazing aren't they?
Excellent pearl comes from the heart of the ocean onto the sea shore. A single pearl comes from a million oysters. Have we ever thought why the oyster with the pearl decides to leave the depths and comes on to the shore? Because it wants to be found out by the ones who are aware of its worth!
More similitude? Of course there are! Dew drops - filled with beauty, absolutely stunning! They are often seen in winter on the leaves, flowers and stems. Why do they ever appear in the dryness of winter? ~ To increase the beauty of everything where they fall. To give a feeling of freshness, care and warmth. Oh dew, lovely it is!
Let us compare all the similes now. Dew express freshness, pearls exhibit beauty, raindrops express the heaviness of welkin and tears ... what do they express? We can not say only woes, they come at happy moments too! All we can say about tears is that they simply express our hearts !!!

Introduction.

Salaam to everybody who care reading this blog :)
I am glad that finally I am giving up my diaries and those stapled pages that have been my friend for so long and am going to publish my work here. Although some other social websites have had the privilege to make my friends familiar with my writing skills but I must say - a blog is a blog, there's no match to it ;)
Well, introducing you to my interests, likes, dislikes and skills is something really significant to do. I just like expressing myself and the medium that I chose to do so is writing (the best part about my writing is that it covers multiple topics and issues and I hope that you guys would find it unique in every way). I write almost everything - essays, poems, fables (where of course the characters always portray a part of me) ;). So here I am ... getting started ... Wish Me Luck! :)
Hope you'll have a good time in knowing me and the person within me and please, always feel free to express yourself through comments and suggestions :) good luck!